HOOK
I'm sorry for, blaming you
For everything, I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, by hurting you
VERSE 1
There is no explanation for a statement that is flagrant,
Either stick by what you said or just admit you were wrong
What I once considered sacred is no longer now the safest
I can't help but think I'm better off if I was alone
Still I'm looking at my phone, wondering if I should call you
Even if you picked it up it's like my point of view's not getting through,
So I guess that makes us stuck in a standstill,
Been down this road before and I'm not tryna climb another hill
Got the might but see I'm lacking at the will
Like I'm stuck within the matrix but don't got a choice in pills,
Words can't describe how my insides feel
Yet composure on the outside looking similar to steel
It's my fault, I know I'm hard to understand
Yet I still try to demand it when it clearly isn't God's plan
Always been a little anti-social
Cuz the ones that hurt me most are always ones that I am close to
HOOK
VERSE 2
Don't know how this effects you but erase me like a pencil,
Cuz it's easier to do that then to live through a lie
Once considered rare and special, now appears to be just metal
Should've never said a word and just pretended I was blind
Too much on my mind that's probably better never said
So I pick the words to pieces til they're scrambled in my head
Sittin on the fence still unsure of where to go,
Cuz either way I'm losing and it's out of my control
Starts taking on a toll so what else am I to do?
You try to blame me, I point my finger at you
Not worth it to pursue, always have a good excuse
Why fight a million battles just to tackle down the truth?
Ring the bell throw the white flag in,
I surrender cuz I'm sinkin' since I barely know to swim
It's not you, I'm trained to enter lock-down
So once I'm feelin' threatened I immediately shut down
HOOK
VERSE 3
Should've kept my distance, had to know from the beginning
Cuz it seemed to good to be true from the very, very start
Finally was winnin', thought my luck had finally shifted,
Didn't wanna face the fact that it would one day fall apart
A big heart, tend to care too deep,
Thinkin' that it'd be returned instead it backfires on me,
My anger is unleashed saying things that I don't mean
It's my only self defense to protect a heart grown weak,
Can't speak because I'm at a loss for words,
My message is unheard so that makes me go bizerk,
There's a method to my madness as to why I am recluse
Cuz when I'm by myself then my sadness is reduced...
Blamed you but I too deserved the fault,
You opened up the wound and I added on the salt
Tre gains another loss, I'm the one who pushed away
Tried my hardest to explain all that's left for me to say is
Philly producer with a notable list of clients drops self-released rap album that's heavy on the soul and jazz flavor. Bandcamp New & Notable Feb 13, 2015